I always think that I am the luckiest person in the world because whenever I fall down, there are some people will be there and lend me a hand to give me the power of relive ~ They are my super duper best friends ='D

Firstly, the one i really appreciate in my life is YY~ we used to be closed with each other almost 7 years~ and she is the one that I depend the most xD  (of course she needs me too hahaha) I still remember no matter what happen, we will always stay with each other even if the whole world boycott one of us, we will not leave each other too~ I remember last time when I was so so so so lost in my life, almost got the thought of committing suicide, she was the one who save me~when I come here, Subang, she is the most hard working one for helping me to get a care giver as I am alone here :')  SHE, YY, is the most sincere friend ever in my life~Friend has no abligation to be with you and help you whenever you need, but she did it <3

Then, MarcMarc, I don't know how to describe this silly guy~we are just the way too special~I don't know why everyone do not trust in ''pure friendship in opposite sex''~maybe me and MarcMarc will be the first pair to prove this in the world? xDDD Everybody used to say we are couple or else we have crush on each other or something like that~hahaha actually this is the most funny part~because we already know each other so well and so many secrets and also know that we are impossible to be a couple~when people say like that, we both will just look at each other and laugh out loud! The most touching thing he did for me was last few months, when I fall into a really emo period in my life, can say almost cry every night~he is the one who sacrificed a lot to help me standing up again~ when I cry, he piggyback me, he is the only one who can cheer me up, make me laugh xDD don't know why~ 

 

Next, another 'pure friendship' in my life, they are my bros =D Tharsh, Allen, Eusoff <3

We knew each other 2 years~ not a really long period and also short period~but we are so closed and of course for them, I am not a girl, I am a BRO =D even if I am boyish within this group but I can feel that they are so sayang me xDDD  wELL, sometimes we will have conflict as well, but towards the end, we are still BROS!!! This friendship will never fade out by time, it will just improve and improve <3 They are really really special to me, and i feel that i'm the so lucky one to be a GUY with them :p

Karmen, a silly little girl in my life. I can only say this is the FATE. We know each other through another friends' group and started closed to each other via I-Crew. Well, just some topics made both of us closer and closer~She is now in US, we call each other, we skype each other, we cry in front of each other via skype, we accompany each other =)

Michelle Chee Chiong Fun, another silly noob girl as Karmen in my life. I think she is too kind for everyone. I still remember how we getting close was the time when i couldn't finish my assignment, and then she volunteered to help me on it. My first expression was -->wow! @@ because we didn't really close with each other hahaha~then don't know what wind brought three of us getting more closer and closer~ haha~i love both of them =)

New topic! Isaac Tan Kitt Voon! hahahaha a silly boy in my life! We know each other through Facebook, we talk, and then meet up and then play like kids xD now he is my little god brother~right, people gossiping that we have affections toward each other and all that, too~but yea, so sorry we treat each other just like family, i help him chace girls, he help me this and that hahaha! Too much, lazy to type :/ why i said he is silly, because he always said himself handsome! For me, his skin is tan skin but is dirty look xDDDDD he is really a nice guy, i think i can call him YESMAN, because he never say no to me hahaha! (maybe few times only? forgot~~)

JoJo and Sean =)

both of them are very sincere and cute friends in my life ~ Sean is the first one in INTI who talked to me on the phone when i was crying, and holding hours haha~ nothing can describe him , just --> BEST GUY! he helped me a lot, music, works, relationship, life.....a lot lot lot~ he is younger than me 2 years but i feel like he is my life lecturer >.< I love this guy so much, he is the only one when flying oversea, i did a lot of thing for him with JoJo and cried for him~just him~

JoJo, a very cute friend in my life, sincere too <3 hmmmm.....the most unforgettable scene that related me and her was, when we know each other not that long, and also not that close, i suddenly cried in front of her, in her room,when she was watching Running Man~hahahahaha! and and and~~one more! We did the farewell gift and card for Sean in the McDonalds in KLIA! Epic one is we stay over night there just because of Sean! haha~hmmmm~She is the one who gave me the necklace that i'm wearing now with my name~ she did a lot for me, i don't know how to describe how much that she did for me, just as much as what Sean did for me~especially when i need them the most~

Evon Lee! haha~ she is really a silly girl~i always think that she needs a friend like me hahaha! We are classmate during high school~that time we were not as close as now, maybe she has too many goodfriends, so sometimes she can't see me hahaha~music brought us together too i think, me and her are both singers =) same hobby and job =D Other than that, SHE is a girl that i can trust so much, i told her many things, we heart to heart talk too =) I remember when she was down, she will call me, and then i will cheer her up, as how she did for me too~when i need someone to accompany me, she is there as well~

This is my simple description for those important friends in my life~people keep saying the end of the world is coming soon, although i do not trust it, but i wrote all these few months ago~not really for the sake of posting before the end of the world~

 why i post it now because i was hesitating about what the people involved will react~ maybe they do not think the same as me? But i don't care, i just wanna write it down as memories in my life and also an appreciation~ FRIEND, it's a word that easy to write, but not easy to find a sincere one in our life~ and those at above were the ones that i really really appreciate and cherish~

THANK GOD THAT I HAVE ALL OF THEM <3

心灵的创伤 永远都比时间跑得慢

有经历的人，不知不觉中，脸上会有一丝的忧愁

这是我在镜子里，常看到的自己

常常以为，笑了，就是放下了

原来，只是暂时的忘记

我很善忘，善忘的人都很开朗

因为可以很快忘记不开心的事

但是后来我变得不善忘了

我的心情都会被音乐牵着走

特定的音乐挂着过去的种种

但是我就是唱不出那个感觉

我常在想，我到底做错了什么事

为什么会受到那么多的惩罚

或者说那些都是为我美好的未来而设的

喜欢一个人，永远不会说出来

只选择暗恋

这是我的原则

所以有时候错过了

只能怪我自己

心太软，也就容易被伤害了

我不知道什么叫做适当的收放自己的情感

我只知道什么叫做全心全意的付出

看着甜蜜的情侣，手牵着手走在红毯上的新人

心里自然会有一份感动

能不能再跨前一步

好让我能听见你的心跳

让我们确定彼此到底只能成为好朋友

还是最终的另一半

心灵的创伤

永远都比时间跑得慢

已经忘记什么是快乐了

即使笑了，还是会寻找笑的原因

看了很多励志书籍

但是没有一本能回应我心里的疑惑

往前看吧

但是那些道路

都是之前走过的

倒退走

才能眼看着这些之前走过的路

离自己越来越远

是我傻，还是世界变复杂了？

我不知该怎么形容这样的心情
眼前的文字，都是模糊的。。。我放不开那个已经消逝的影子。。。
为什么每一次偏偏要在我相信了以后，才发现所有的事情都是个骗局？
我用尽真心，付出。。。换来的是欺骗。。。
偏偏我就是个受过很多次伤的人，明明就很抗拒‘相信’这种东西，
就在我好不容易相信了，毫无防备的时候，那个让我重新振作的，让我看见新开始的，原来也是个骗子。。。
是我傻，还是世界变复杂了？

键盘湿透了，忍了好久的情绪都发泄在今晚，在眼泪里，文字里。。。
我要写下，要证明，以后当我再次遇到了同样情况，这篇文章就可以让我知道我曾经多么辛酸的一刻，不要再相信，够了

白羊座女孩

说起白羊座，其实自己还蛮喜欢这个星座的。
我就是一个属羊的白羊座女孩，所以性格上脱离不了羊吧？哈哈

白羊有时做事情不顾后果，想做就做，一旦有任何错失，就会一直觉得后悔莫及，开始emo==
性格有时会像双子座，情绪会起起伏伏，变化也很大，但是由于很顾及朋友的感受，心情不好时，都不会在朋友面前泄露，因为白羊不爱把沉重的心情带给身边的人，他们只把快乐渲染朋友们 =)
但是一到单独的时刻，心情就会突然变得莫名的emo,说不出原因，就会一直很沉重、很沉重。。。有时还无意中掉眼泪，然后开始把所有事情都想得很负面。 或许可以说白羊的性格很消极，快乐的时候可以真的开心到巅峰，伤心时就会进入一个很黑暗的世界。
傻大姐的白羊，在朋友群中容易遭受嫉妒，但因为拥有自发的魅力与一颗真诚的心，朋友也很多，通常会获得许多爱戴。
感情世界过于单纯，有时还会分不清自己的感觉，也容易自作多情，同时又会轻易喜欢上别人，但是感觉有时会很快消失。如果遇到真的很喜欢的那一个，无论怎样都好，绝不倒追（白羊女），因为面子对白羊来说有点严重哦，哈哈哈！同时也因为白羊会隐藏自己真正的情感。一个蛮大的缺点，就是白羊很太容易相信朋友，所以有时遇到初次见面就很好谈的人，白羊将会把自己的秘密分享出来==  其实白羊很矛盾的 xD
其实白羊看似坚强，其实内心是嫉妒的脆弱 T.T
白羊们非常在意别人的看法，对于谣言会铭记在心，然后又emo一整天。。。

我喜欢白羊交友时付出的那颗真诚的心，开朗，爱挑战。
不喜欢白羊时而缺乏自信，心情容易受影响与低落及消极的性格 =(

虽然您是皇后，但家里没有一个人是奴婢

从小到大，我泪腺的最大弱点就只有一个，就是我家的皇后。。。

无论做什么事情都好，只要不是我的错，无端端被皇后出气，我就会哭上一整天。。。

记得高二时，我在班上卖食物，所以每天早上5点左右就要爬起来，做便当去班上卖。记得有一天早上，我太累了，睡迟了30分钟，一起床，就被皇后训到不像人，我依然要在最快的速度下煮好食物，就这样一直从家里被骂到车上，再骂到学校去。。。在车上的时候，就已经哭得不像人了，走到了教室，同学们都以为我感情出了问题，但却没有人知道我泪腺那么发达的原因何在。也就这样，我很经典的，从第一节课哭到放学，同学们都惊讶。。。

毕业了，进大学了，觉得自己改变最多的，就是脾气。以前还会对皇后顶嘴，后来，无论皇后怎样无理取闹，我都只是静静不说话，不然就是偷偷跑到房间里哭。。。没有人会知道的。。。

直到今天，皇后太过分了，过分得难以言喻，这次我这‘奴婢’一次性爆发，把所有皇后之前无理取闹的事，加上今天的，一边哭一边爆发出来，然后我竟然说了一句很严重的话‘有离家出走的念头不是没有原因的！’。。。

皇后闹到没话闹了，还是始终说都是我这奴婢的错，我喊得喉咙都快裂了，不喊了，就这样从超市哭到回家，然后一整天不出来吃饭，只拿了一碗中药进房里喝。。。

‘孝顺不能等’，我当然了解，我从来都没有不孝顺过，我只知道，女儿也是人，也有人权的，不能因为您是我皇后，我就没有权让您知道您错在哪里。。。我有理的和您说，您却始终要闹翻。。。

Sorry that I'm still loving you :'(

I always remind myself that I have to responsible for whatever decisions I made. Until last night, I realized that I was really regret on one wrong decision that i had made on 9th January~
The only way that i can responsible for the wrong choice i made is to move on, but i still can't be moving on...every night is just like a tear bomb for me, makes me cry spontaneously, feeling sucks until words can't describe it~
I tried, i tried to let go of it, but it still bother me until now, strongly affected my life...I keep blaming myself that why I didn't trust him at the first place, why I didn't give a chance for both of us? After that day, no matter how much efforts i put to fight back for the relationship, it was too late...everything had changed...and only one thing i got which is REGRET... 

If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
If this was a movie, I wish i could re-write the scripts and go back to December...

Goodbye...wish you doing good and still awesome like how you are now in your new life in US =')

语录

~好的恋爱关系不是一下子就建立的，它需要时间，耐心，还有两个真心想在一起的人..♥

~总会有比你更漂亮的女孩，但找个对此不在乎的男人就够了..♥

~有没有这么一个人，你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不得..

~有時，我只是想能有個人，緊緊抱著我不放，直到我的心情能好起來 ♥

~把別人看得太重，結果在別人眼裡自己什麼都不是 ♥

~有没有试过回过头去看你跟一个人的聊天记录、从一开始到现在、看着看着就笑了、笑着笑着就哭……一个人，从陌生走近你，然后再陌生..

~世界上最残忍的事, 不是沒遇到爱的人；而是遇到卻最終错过。世界上最伤心的事, 不是你爱人不爱你；而是他爱过你、最后却不爱你。我们曾经相爱，想到就心酸。

~我还是相信这个世界会有这么一个人、对我不离不弃、不欺不瞒..所以先前经历过的伤和痛是为了完美我自己、以更好的姿态遇见他..

~ 最好的友情不是从幼兒園開始、而是開始後永遠都不會結束..♥

~有時候，我們追寻更多的東西，却忘了我們已經擁有的一切..

~世界上最令人激动的一件事情是，你原本以为没有机会靠近的人，竟然爱上了你♥

~即使有人打碎了你的心，总还是会有人，愿意修补好它。

~喜欢一个人是一种感觉，不喜欢一个人却是事实。事实容易解释，感觉却难以言喻♥

~有人会因为你的缺点而讨厌你，但是，也会有人因为你的真实自然而喜欢你♥

~世界上最不能等的事 —— 孝顺 ♥

~世上是否真的有这样的奇迹，你喜欢他，他也喜欢你，两个人，一辈子♥

~拼命对一个人好，生怕做错一点对方就不喜欢你，这不是爱而是取悦...  

~分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过、不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过；所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人。 

~我希望找到一个担心失去我的人..

~世界上，真的會有那麼一個人默默關注著你，疼愛著你，卻永遠不再靠近你..♥

一个人看到的视野，总比恋爱中的人来的辽阔~

前三个星期，正忙着准备presentation的当儿，刚好一个好朋友来到我的宿舍楼下，和我聊心事。。

他是我唯一一个马来男性好朋友，之前有过一些过节，但是友情的力量到最后还是赢家，所以我们感情依旧，只是些许裂缝难免会造成保留话题的尴尬~但是那天晚上，我们在车里聊了好多好多~毫不保留~

他遇到了爱情的难题，而我也分享了自己目前单身的想法~

他从来没有恋爱过，可是他却有着和我一样的空虚感~我一直以为，只有恋爱过的人儿，才会有这样子的空虚感~

或许习惯恋爱的关系，我好久没单身那么久了，从前依赖习惯，现在所有的生活大小事，都得自己来面对了。

由于很少依赖家人的关系，以前都是3个前任给予的呵护与依靠。。

当晚好朋友告诉了我，他同时喜欢两个女孩，但是却不知道哪一个才适合他，我就笑着回答说，那就看哪一个对你有感觉啊！他就说：说的也是~因此我说，为什么单身了21年，突然想恋爱了？一直以来不是很享受单身自由的生活吗？ 他突然很沉重的回答，‘有时候，真的是需要一个真正能懂你的人，就像自己懂自己一样的那一个，在身边。。’ 

我想了想，突然想到了自己，原来我也是这样~虽然身边好朋友很多，但是真正走进心里的那一个，却不在~突然间，才发现原来没有恋爱过的人，也会有这样的想法~

想起以前的自己，还没开始恋爱的那个自己，谁也不依赖，就只是爱粘着好朋友到处跑~从来没有空虚感~但是一开始恋爱的旅程后，似乎恋爱已经成为发动空虚引擎的汽油，而空虚也成为恋爱的助燃器~是个循环程式~对于某些人来说，这理论应该成立吧~

后来我笑着对他说，哈哈！白羊座的同党，果然有一样的想法！

其实发现长大了，就算有这样的空虚感存在，也不以为然了，开始把所有所有的感觉寄托在自己的心灵上，不受空虚感的打压，即使它强烈，也只不过那几分钟、甚至几小时~没什么大不了~一个人，看到的视野，总比恋爱中的人来的辽阔~

感谢自己从来没有重色轻友的坏癖好，谢天谢地，为自己带来了那么多真心的好朋友 =D

最后，我告诉他，如果真的强烈喜欢，就去追求吧，但如果发现寂寞感胜于自己对她们的感觉，那就好好享受单身吧，像以前一样 ^_^ 加油~

认命吧

昨天往返家乡的路途上，一直都在听耳机，歌曲没有停止过，直到到达了马六甲车站。

在巴士上的时候，心情格外的复杂，有时很紧绷；有时很绞痛；有时很矛盾；有时很忧伤。。。

回想去星期四那天早上，心情特别好，因为想着想着，要回马六甲了，很兴奋 =) 结果星期五早上收到了一封晴天霹雳的信息，似乎让我看清了一切，我好像真的是个傻瓜~有时候我真的不太爱表达，也或许说我表达得不明显，因此往往错过了很多机会，但是也因为这样，让我看清了人性的现实本质，‘时间是一切’，说得真好。

到马六甲的那天晚上，‘物归原主’的那一刻，让我弄清了脑袋，也庆幸自己没有陷下去~

回到房间后，繁杂的心情依旧，我试着把自己关在灯光微弱的房间里，就只开了盏粉红色的霓虹灯，播放着经典老歌，然后，号啕大哭，释放自己的眼泪，哭得像个小孩似的~

哭的时候，很痛；哭过之后，很舒服 =)

时间是一切

休息是为了走更长远的路...
我不奢望王子的出现，不期望谁会给我公主般的生活，不幻想以后的爱情有多美满...
我只选择活在当下，那就足够了...
越是期待，越是容易相信，越是容易相信，越是容易受伤...
现在活得快乐，那就足够了，未来就当着是惊喜，过去就当作是回忆，无论是痛是苦，把它们收藏在一个回忆的盒子里，不去碰它，就好啦 =) 
接下来还会有很多惊喜的礼物盒呢~^^
生活，只要会享受，就是如此的得意 =)

信念

在跌倒了那么多次以后，我才发现，原来我很坚强。

第一次在爱情上重重的摔了一跤后，我几乎全身瘫痪，四肢无法使力，呼吸困难。那时候就只有一样东西让自己感觉到原来自己还生在这世界上的，就是泪泉。

‘稀里哗啦’，不是下雨声，是泪泉突然活跃了起来。那时候的感觉很可怕，是已经全然的把自己抛在世界以外的空间，音乐低沉而忧郁，周围的空气都是冷冰冰的，没有一丝的温暖。唯一能做的，就是不断地寻找心灵慰籍。我常常在想，我就是如此的幸运，因为身边那群姐妹就是我活下去的动力，可见得友对我来说，是何等的重要。
有些人说，当你想要忘记一段不想被记起的爱情时，必须用另一段新恋情去慢慢的淡忘它、磨灭它。是的，后来另一段新恋情，让我重生了，就好像雪中送炭一样，给了我活起来的力量，很温暖，很感激。我不会忘记那段刻苦铭心的恋爱，它让我再一次相信。

不知该不该说是我的爱情路坎坷，这一段恋情，又让我摔了一跤，或许是缘分作祟吧，这次摔的虽然没有比之前的痛，但是一摔下的那一刻，我的旧伤也复发了，原来我忘记的，是之前的人，不是之前的痛。新的伤口，就和旧的伤口同一个位置，我愣了一下，才发现，真得好疼。这时也发现，原来另一段恋情并不能真正让自己忘掉过去的伤痛。

我颤抖着身子站起来，当我想要挽着姐妹们的手，以助我一臂之力走下去的时候，她们突然消失无踪，因为某些荒谬而不能被解释的原因，她们抛下了我，我头脑顿时一片漆黑，不知所措，我一直往着前方走去，却没有一丝光线，然后开始不知道自己到底是向前走着，还是原地踏步。我，彻底的失去了方向。

我并没有放弃寻找那光线之处，我用尽那么一点的力气，一直让自己在黑暗里脱身。终于，有人伸出了援手，我感受到了真诚的心，他们不断拉着我，找到了出口路。我心怀感激，感恩在这人生低潮期，有人听见了我的呐喊，给我勇气披荆斩棘。我在山峰上，踮着脚尖，感觉自己好高好高，接收着太阳所赐予的温暖，我的笑容笑活了。

当我一个人静静地思考着一个人的生活时，有一个男孩突然出现，坐在我的身边。他来倾听我内心深处的呐喊。彼此敞开心扉，却在错的时间，他对我心动了。后来他让我看见了人生第一颗流星，也把我的心给占据了。经过一段不长也不短的时间后，他抽身而退，一声不响，离开了我的世界，回去他那原本桃花满开的地方。我在悬崖边摇晃着，没有任何思绪，脑袋一片空白，呼吸似乎停止了，只感到阵阵冷风从背后吹来，快要把我轻轻的推了下去。于是我闭上眼睛，温热的眼泪温暖冰冻的脸颊，我清楚地知道我在悬崖边，但是仍然任由冷风使唤，决定我的方向。刺骨的寒冷，加上漂浮的脚板，我似乎像一具活生生的尸体。

就在我快要往下倾的时候，一双粗壮但却用着温柔的力度的手，把我从悬崖边拉了回来。我转头望着他，他静静的看着我，在他眼神里，流露出一种我从未感受过的柔情。我的眼角干涸了，再也挤不出泪水。他坚定的眼神，要我答应他，勇敢地活下去。我失落的脸色，无神的双眼，面对着他，轻轻地点点头。他答应陪我一起度过低潮期，我当然感到安慰。但是，我会一直保持界限，我深信如果再一次踩过线，同样的错误会一直重演，就算心里那道防线越界了，我也不能说出口。我只怀着感激的心，凭藉着他给我的生存推动力，往前走。

每当我已心灰意冷，就因为那么一点点的信念，我还是选择相信。

爱情里没有谁对谁错，只是人人都甩不掉同一种弱点，就是复杂的心态，污染了爱情最原始的单纯。

我相信，雨过天晴的彩虹，也相信那些给我勇气的人。

谢谢你，这位伸出援手的大厨 =)

最好的总在未来等着你

Whatever with the past has gone, the best is always yet to come.

不管过去如何，过去的已经过去，最好的总在未来等着你。

Sometimes we feel depress or even despair and bring into self-destruction when we lost something or somebody that we have been owned. I had experienced the feelings of losing the one who mean so much to me, and not only once, is twice...or can say even  more...

Yea, I felt so lost and I had started to think everything as negative...I had changed to someone else even I do not know who I am...I have done those things that I had never done before...just because of losing the one who are already not worth it to think about, I had ruin my own beautiful life... These are such stupid behaviors...

Now I no longer feel lost instead of became stronger, losing them made me discovered that I can live more happier without them because I have never give up instead of they gave up on me...on the relationship...the friendship...

at least I tried and put effort on them, I have nothing to do with it if they chose to leave...no one has the obligation to stick with you as what you wish, you have no rights to ask anyone to be your best friend forever or even be the one to love you forever...eventually, we are all alone, we are all living by depending on oneself...nobody can be blamed, even yourself, now I know, when they choose to be with someone else, just let them go, freedom may be something more than love...because everyone has the right of freedom, and we should not take others freedom as our own happiness when they do not feel the same way...

Be positive, the best is always yet to come =)

Smile people ^_^

雨后彩虹 =)

No matter how long the rain lasts, there will be a rainbow in the end. No matter how sad you may be, believe that happiness is waiting.

无论下多久的雨，最后都会有彩虹；无论你多么悲伤，要相信幸福在前方等候。

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
的确只有当我们失去时才知道曾拥有的是什么，同样，只有当我们拥有了才知道曾经失去了什么。

The Scientist

Come up to meet you   Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you  Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart 

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start


You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you  Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions

Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles; coming up tails

Heads on a silence apart 

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you  Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart 


Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science; science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me  Come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

JB and S'pore trip !

Well, I just came back from the JB and S'pore trip~5 days 4 nights! That's really AWESOME! =)
I appreciate to my friends who had entertained me and provided accommodation for me, big big thanks to YY and Marc Marc <3
oh yea, and thanks to Kevin Greener and Alan for the entertainment^^


I love 'Udesserts'!! The Durian sago dessert is amazing!! (the durian taste still surrounding my tongue >.<'' )


Due to this time was a budget trip, so I actually did not spend a lot~(and I have no enough money to spend too T.T), hence it's limited for me to go more places~
Never mind, at least I was happy and I absolutely enjoy! Especially when I was spending time with my lovely good friends and best friends^^ It's worth it for travelling 3 hours from Malacca to JB ^o^


Hmmm, after end of the trip, something unpredictable and can say bad thing occur! T.T...definitely, when I just open the lappie, the first thing I did was checking my final results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Three words>> WHAT THE HECK????!!!!!......It's time to say bye bye to my CGPA 3.0 ............T.T
Unpredictable~ I had did smoothly for all the subjects but aiikksss....results are not on my wish =( feel so sorry for myself....

失去

一直以来，那个一直都会出现在我任何一本日记里的那个名字，找到了他的幸福啦 =）
是曾经一个让我懂得什么叫‘爱’的男孩， 也是让我成长的一个人，也不知道为什么，他的名字永远都会出现在我的日记本里。话说，每个人心中都存在着一个永远不被遗忘的人，他就是我人生中那一个，也是我最幸福的时期，拥有的一个人 =）
真心祝福他，真的很高兴，他找到了他人生中的那一个~


要永远幸福……^^
别像我这样~~

Am I really wrong?

I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I didn't mean to steal anyone from you! That time I was just too care about you so I keep asking the people around about you, they know my pain so I did tell them about our problem last time, I just need listeners, you would never feel how pain I am, and now your friends & brother became mine as well, and you said I stole them from you, how sad it is when I really didn't mean it...So yea, as you wish, I will just stop talking with them, everything will be fine for you. That is it.