Sorry that I'm still loving you :'(

I always remind myself that I have to responsible for whatever decisions I made. Until last night, I realized that I was really regret on one wrong decision that i had made on 9th January~
The only way that i can responsible for the wrong choice i made is to move on, but i still can't be moving on...every night is just like a tear bomb for me, makes me cry spontaneously, feeling sucks until words can't describe it~
I tried, i tried to let go of it, but it still bother me until now, strongly affected my life...I keep blaming myself that why I didn't trust him at the first place, why I didn't give a chance for both of us? After that day, no matter how much efforts i put to fight back for the relationship, it was too late...everything had changed...and only one thing i got which is REGRET... 

If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
If this was a movie, I wish i could re-write the scripts and go back to December...

Goodbye...wish you doing good and still awesome like how you are now in your new life in US =')