信念

在跌倒了那么多次以后，我才发现，原来我很坚强。

第一次在爱情上重重的摔了一跤后，我几乎全身瘫痪，四肢无法使力，呼吸困难。那时候就只有一样东西让自己感觉到原来自己还生在这世界上的，就是泪泉。

‘稀里哗啦’，不是下雨声，是泪泉突然活跃了起来。那时候的感觉很可怕，是已经全然的把自己抛在世界以外的空间，音乐低沉而忧郁，周围的空气都是冷冰冰的，没有一丝的温暖。唯一能做的，就是不断地寻找心灵慰籍。我常常在想，我就是如此的幸运，因为身边那群姐妹就是我活下去的动力，可见得友对我来说，是何等的重要。
有些人说，当你想要忘记一段不想被记起的爱情时，必须用另一段新恋情去慢慢的淡忘它、磨灭它。是的，后来另一段新恋情，让我重生了，就好像雪中送炭一样，给了我活起来的力量，很温暖，很感激。我不会忘记那段刻苦铭心的恋爱，它让我再一次相信。

不知该不该说是我的爱情路坎坷，这一段恋情，又让我摔了一跤，或许是缘分作祟吧，这次摔的虽然没有比之前的痛，但是一摔下的那一刻，我的旧伤也复发了，原来我忘记的，是之前的人，不是之前的痛。新的伤口，就和旧的伤口同一个位置，我愣了一下，才发现，真得好疼。这时也发现，原来另一段恋情并不能真正让自己忘掉过去的伤痛。

我颤抖着身子站起来，当我想要挽着姐妹们的手，以助我一臂之力走下去的时候，她们突然消失无踪，因为某些荒谬而不能被解释的原因，她们抛下了我，我头脑顿时一片漆黑，不知所措，我一直往着前方走去，却没有一丝光线，然后开始不知道自己到底是向前走着，还是原地踏步。我，彻底的失去了方向。

我并没有放弃寻找那光线之处，我用尽那么一点的力气，一直让自己在黑暗里脱身。终于，有人伸出了援手，我感受到了真诚的心，他们不断拉着我，找到了出口路。我心怀感激，感恩在这人生低潮期，有人听见了我的呐喊，给我勇气披荆斩棘。我在山峰上，踮着脚尖，感觉自己好高好高，接收着太阳所赐予的温暖，我的笑容笑活了。

当我一个人静静地思考着一个人的生活时，有一个男孩突然出现，坐在我的身边。他来倾听我内心深处的呐喊。彼此敞开心扉，却在错的时间，他对我心动了。后来他让我看见了人生第一颗流星，也把我的心给占据了。经过一段不长也不短的时间后，他抽身而退，一声不响，离开了我的世界，回去他那原本桃花满开的地方。我在悬崖边摇晃着，没有任何思绪，脑袋一片空白，呼吸似乎停止了，只感到阵阵冷风从背后吹来，快要把我轻轻的推了下去。于是我闭上眼睛，温热的眼泪温暖冰冻的脸颊，我清楚地知道我在悬崖边，但是仍然任由冷风使唤，决定我的方向。刺骨的寒冷，加上漂浮的脚板，我似乎像一具活生生的尸体。

就在我快要往下倾的时候，一双粗壮但却用着温柔的力度的手，把我从悬崖边拉了回来。我转头望着他，他静静的看着我，在他眼神里，流露出一种我从未感受过的柔情。我的眼角干涸了，再也挤不出泪水。他坚定的眼神，要我答应他，勇敢地活下去。我失落的脸色，无神的双眼，面对着他，轻轻地点点头。他答应陪我一起度过低潮期，我当然感到安慰。但是，我会一直保持界限，我深信如果再一次踩过线，同样的错误会一直重演，就算心里那道防线越界了，我也不能说出口。我只怀着感激的心，凭藉着他给我的生存推动力，往前走。

每当我已心灰意冷，就因为那么一点点的信念，我还是选择相信。

爱情里没有谁对谁错，只是人人都甩不掉同一种弱点，就是复杂的心态，污染了爱情最原始的单纯。

我相信，雨过天晴的彩虹，也相信那些给我勇气的人。

谢谢你，这位伸出援手的大厨 =)

最好的总在未来等着你

Whatever with the past has gone, the best is always yet to come.

不管过去如何，过去的已经过去，最好的总在未来等着你。

Sometimes we feel depress or even despair and bring into self-destruction when we lost something or somebody that we have been owned. I had experienced the feelings of losing the one who mean so much to me, and not only once, is twice...or can say even  more...

Yea, I felt so lost and I had started to think everything as negative...I had changed to someone else even I do not know who I am...I have done those things that I had never done before...just because of losing the one who are already not worth it to think about, I had ruin my own beautiful life... These are such stupid behaviors...

Now I no longer feel lost instead of became stronger, losing them made me discovered that I can live more happier without them because I have never give up instead of they gave up on me...on the relationship...the friendship...

at least I tried and put effort on them, I have nothing to do with it if they chose to leave...no one has the obligation to stick with you as what you wish, you have no rights to ask anyone to be your best friend forever or even be the one to love you forever...eventually, we are all alone, we are all living by depending on oneself...nobody can be blamed, even yourself, now I know, when they choose to be with someone else, just let them go, freedom may be something more than love...because everyone has the right of freedom, and we should not take others freedom as our own happiness when they do not feel the same way...

Be positive, the best is always yet to come =)

Smile people ^_^

雨后彩虹 =)

No matter how long the rain lasts, there will be a rainbow in the end. No matter how sad you may be, believe that happiness is waiting.

无论下多久的雨，最后都会有彩虹；无论你多么悲伤，要相信幸福在前方等候。

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
的确只有当我们失去时才知道曾拥有的是什么，同样，只有当我们拥有了才知道曾经失去了什么。

The Scientist

Come up to meet you   Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you  Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart 

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start


You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you  Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions

Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles; coming up tails

Heads on a silence apart 

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you  Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets  And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart 


Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science; science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me  Come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

JB and S'pore trip !

Well, I just came back from the JB and S'pore trip~5 days 4 nights! That's really AWESOME! =)
I appreciate to my friends who had entertained me and provided accommodation for me, big big thanks to YY and Marc Marc <3
oh yea, and thanks to Kevin Greener and Alan for the entertainment^^


I love 'Udesserts'!! The Durian sago dessert is amazing!! (the durian taste still surrounding my tongue >.<'' )


Due to this time was a budget trip, so I actually did not spend a lot~(and I have no enough money to spend too T.T), hence it's limited for me to go more places~
Never mind, at least I was happy and I absolutely enjoy! Especially when I was spending time with my lovely good friends and best friends^^ It's worth it for travelling 3 hours from Malacca to JB ^o^


Hmmm, after end of the trip, something unpredictable and can say bad thing occur! T.T...definitely, when I just open the lappie, the first thing I did was checking my final results!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Three words>> WHAT THE HECK????!!!!!......It's time to say bye bye to my CGPA 3.0 ............T.T
Unpredictable~ I had did smoothly for all the subjects but aiikksss....results are not on my wish =( feel so sorry for myself....

失去

一直以来，那个一直都会出现在我任何一本日记里的那个名字，找到了他的幸福啦 =）
是曾经一个让我懂得什么叫‘爱’的男孩， 也是让我成长的一个人，也不知道为什么，他的名字永远都会出现在我的日记本里。话说，每个人心中都存在着一个永远不被遗忘的人，他就是我人生中那一个，也是我最幸福的时期，拥有的一个人 =）
真心祝福他，真的很高兴，他找到了他人生中的那一个~


要永远幸福……^^
别像我这样~~

Am I really wrong?

I didn't mean to hurt anyone, I didn't mean to steal anyone from you! That time I was just too care about you so I keep asking the people around about you, they know my pain so I did tell them about our problem last time, I just need listeners, you would never feel how pain I am, and now your friends & brother became mine as well, and you said I stole them from you, how sad it is when I really didn't mean it...So yea, as you wish, I will just stop talking with them, everything will be fine for you. That is it.