White Christmas dedicate for my good friends

Specially recorded this song - White Christmas for all my good friends, I miss them so much :')

It's finally December now, how time flies! How are you doing? Hope you will enjoy the coming Xmas and cherish the last month of 2013, do what you wanna do, do not remain any regret xD

I am really happy to record this song for y'all, hope y'all will miss me too haha! 
Keep in touch my friends <3

The Show & 傻瓜就是我 performed by Me^^

All about my singing life in Lang Tengah =) 

要学会就一定要经过

一些歌曲/音乐总会把你的情绪给牵走，对我也一样。。。
在曾经一段时间，当你带着什么样的心情去听一首歌，那首歌将会成为掀起你当时情绪的特定的歌曲。你有吗？
有时候，适当的回忆，是一种很不错的感情抒发，但是过量了，就会成为一种负面情绪。

当你不断地重复播放那特定歌曲，你会慢慢发现，所有的所有，都和之前不一样了，怎么还那么执著？觉得自己好傻，一直试着找回那样的感觉，但事实却是残忍，你不只得不回你失去的东西，你还被那如此负面的情绪进攻，更是残忍。。。

我记得那时候，在完全失去自我、彻底悲痛的那一刻，还有人会陪我聊天到早上，每晚一则笑话，逗我开心，虽然有些我看不懂，但是好窝心啊。都怪那时候自己太容易曝露自己的负面情绪，弱点也就这样流露出来，然后受伤得更严重。。。

现在听着那些特定歌曲写着这篇部落格，怎样都好，情绪还是会有点被掀起，但是不会心痛了，我想我长大了吧 =)

人生就像Candy Crush

发现candy crush很人性化，每次破了剩下几块jelly, 偏偏就没有move了，幸运的话，你可以结成巧克力，一次过破完jelly, 不幸运的话，没有巧克力，也没有糖果，用尽了life，就必须等待。Life就如我们让人生的机会，5次机会，一不小心走错一步，就必须绞尽脑汁去破下一步，不然就浪费掉一次机会了。如果好好把握机会，每一步都计划好好，就可以很快达到下一个目标。草草了事，不把握机会，当机会用完了，就必须等待，而在等待的同时，你满脑子都是刚刚走过的每一步。人生不就这样吗？ 

机会一旦失去，就必须等待，或许等待的同时，你其实已经失去某些东西了。

Candy crush会常常出现奇迹，好多次，当我剩下最后几个moves, 而jelly还有一大堆，不然就是水果还没掉下来，我就有想要放弃的念头，但是坚持告诉自己，最后几个moves也就是机会，我绞尽脑汁，终于每次在最后2个moves破关。

当机会摆在眼前，你仍然不去把握，那你跟原地踏步有什么两样？永远stuck在同一关，甚至长达几个星期。转到人生的角度，两个星期可能就是两年或是20年。

人生70%靠自己，30%靠运气，如果你只依靠那30%，你连游戏都不如，更谈不起人生。

机会给了，用尽了，向朋友讨，不是每个人都有耐心重复给你很多次，当你讨多了，人家就会对你反感。同样道理，与其不断向别人讨机会，倒不如自己好好计划怎么走，把握已经有的机会。

痛一下而已，很快就会过去

在错的时间，遇上错的人，是大错特错。但是为什么心还是会模糊？
逃避恋爱，就是因为怕受伤，又或者是没有心理准备，也能说是习惯一个人了。

从来没有想要伤害过谁，自己都伤痕累累了，还要用微笑掩饰，怎么还有心情去伤害别人？

喜欢，为什么就一定要在一起？没有在一起，为什么就不能做朋友？
其实事情很简单，但是为什么人就是喜欢把它复杂化？

心很痛，因为一个‘不了解’。。。

怎样都好，我还是一个人在走着。

心再也打不开了。就让她关着吧，她需要休息。

I always think that I am the luckiest person in the world because whenever I fall down, there are some people will be there and lend me a hand to give me the power of relive ~ They are my super duper best friends ='D

Firstly, the one i really appreciate in my life is YY~ we used to be closed with each other almost 7 years~ and she is the one that I depend the most xD  (of course she needs me too hahaha) I still remember no matter what happen, we will always stay with each other even if the whole world boycott one of us, we will not leave each other too~ I remember last time when I was so so so so lost in my life, almost got the thought of committing suicide, she was the one who save me~when I come here, Subang, she is the most hard working one for helping me to get a care giver as I am alone here :')  SHE, YY, is the most sincere friend ever in my life~Friend has no abligation to be with you and help you whenever you need, but she did it <3

Then, MarcMarc, I don't know how to describe this silly guy~we are just the way too special~I don't know why everyone do not trust in ''pure friendship in opposite sex''~maybe me and MarcMarc will be the first pair to prove this in the world? xDDD Everybody used to say we are couple or else we have crush on each other or something like that~hahaha actually this is the most funny part~because we already know each other so well and so many secrets and also know that we are impossible to be a couple~when people say like that, we both will just look at each other and laugh out loud! The most touching thing he did for me was last few months, when I fall into a really emo period in my life, can say almost cry every night~he is the one who sacrificed a lot to help me standing up again~ when I cry, he piggyback me, he is the only one who can cheer me up, make me laugh xDD don't know why~ 

 

Next, another 'pure friendship' in my life, they are my bros =D Tharsh, Allen, Eusoff <3

We knew each other 2 years~ not a really long period and also short period~but we are so closed and of course for them, I am not a girl, I am a BRO =D even if I am boyish within this group but I can feel that they are so sayang me xDDD  wELL, sometimes we will have conflict as well, but towards the end, we are still BROS!!! This friendship will never fade out by time, it will just improve and improve <3 They are really really special to me, and i feel that i'm the so lucky one to be a GUY with them :p

Karmen, a silly little girl in my life. I can only say this is the FATE. We know each other through another friends' group and started closed to each other via I-Crew. Well, just some topics made both of us closer and closer~She is now in US, we call each other, we skype each other, we cry in front of each other via skype, we accompany each other =)

Michelle Chee Chiong Fun, another silly noob girl as Karmen in my life. I think she is too kind for everyone. I still remember how we getting close was the time when i couldn't finish my assignment, and then she volunteered to help me on it. My first expression was -->wow! @@ because we didn't really close with each other hahaha~then don't know what wind brought three of us getting more closer and closer~ haha~i love both of them =)

New topic! Isaac Tan Kitt Voon! hahahaha a silly boy in my life! We know each other through Facebook, we talk, and then meet up and then play like kids xD now he is my little god brother~right, people gossiping that we have affections toward each other and all that, too~but yea, so sorry we treat each other just like family, i help him chace girls, he help me this and that hahaha! Too much, lazy to type :/ why i said he is silly, because he always said himself handsome! For me, his skin is tan skin but is dirty look xDDDDD he is really a nice guy, i think i can call him YESMAN, because he never say no to me hahaha! (maybe few times only? forgot~~)

JoJo and Sean =)

both of them are very sincere and cute friends in my life ~ Sean is the first one in INTI who talked to me on the phone when i was crying, and holding hours haha~ nothing can describe him , just --> BEST GUY! he helped me a lot, music, works, relationship, life.....a lot lot lot~ he is younger than me 2 years but i feel like he is my life lecturer >.< I love this guy so much, he is the only one when flying oversea, i did a lot of thing for him with JoJo and cried for him~just him~

JoJo, a very cute friend in my life, sincere too <3 hmmmm.....the most unforgettable scene that related me and her was, when we know each other not that long, and also not that close, i suddenly cried in front of her, in her room,when she was watching Running Man~hahahahaha! and and and~~one more! We did the farewell gift and card for Sean in the McDonalds in KLIA! Epic one is we stay over night there just because of Sean! haha~hmmmm~She is the one who gave me the necklace that i'm wearing now with my name~ she did a lot for me, i don't know how to describe how much that she did for me, just as much as what Sean did for me~especially when i need them the most~

Evon Lee! haha~ she is really a silly girl~i always think that she needs a friend like me hahaha! We are classmate during high school~that time we were not as close as now, maybe she has too many goodfriends, so sometimes she can't see me hahaha~music brought us together too i think, me and her are both singers =) same hobby and job =D Other than that, SHE is a girl that i can trust so much, i told her many things, we heart to heart talk too =) I remember when she was down, she will call me, and then i will cheer her up, as how she did for me too~when i need someone to accompany me, she is there as well~

This is my simple description for those important friends in my life~people keep saying the end of the world is coming soon, although i do not trust it, but i wrote all these few months ago~not really for the sake of posting before the end of the world~

 why i post it now because i was hesitating about what the people involved will react~ maybe they do not think the same as me? But i don't care, i just wanna write it down as memories in my life and also an appreciation~ FRIEND, it's a word that easy to write, but not easy to find a sincere one in our life~ and those at above were the ones that i really really appreciate and cherish~

THANK GOD THAT I HAVE ALL OF THEM <3

心灵的创伤 永远都比时间跑得慢

有经历的人，不知不觉中，脸上会有一丝的忧愁

这是我在镜子里，常看到的自己

常常以为，笑了，就是放下了

原来，只是暂时的忘记

我很善忘，善忘的人都很开朗

因为可以很快忘记不开心的事

但是后来我变得不善忘了

我的心情都会被音乐牵着走

特定的音乐挂着过去的种种

但是我就是唱不出那个感觉

我常在想，我到底做错了什么事

为什么会受到那么多的惩罚

或者说那些都是为我美好的未来而设的

喜欢一个人，永远不会说出来

只选择暗恋

这是我的原则

所以有时候错过了

只能怪我自己

心太软，也就容易被伤害了

我不知道什么叫做适当的收放自己的情感

我只知道什么叫做全心全意的付出

看着甜蜜的情侣，手牵着手走在红毯上的新人

心里自然会有一份感动

能不能再跨前一步

好让我能听见你的心跳

让我们确定彼此到底只能成为好朋友

还是最终的另一半

心灵的创伤

永远都比时间跑得慢

已经忘记什么是快乐了

即使笑了，还是会寻找笑的原因

看了很多励志书籍

但是没有一本能回应我心里的疑惑

往前看吧

但是那些道路

都是之前走过的

倒退走

才能眼看着这些之前走过的路

离自己越来越远