虽然您是皇后，但家里没有一个人是奴婢

从小到大，我泪腺的最大弱点就只有一个，就是我家的皇后。。。

无论做什么事情都好，只要不是我的错，无端端被皇后出气，我就会哭上一整天。。。

记得高二时，我在班上卖食物，所以每天早上5点左右就要爬起来，做便当去班上卖。记得有一天早上，我太累了，睡迟了30分钟，一起床，就被皇后训到不像人，我依然要在最快的速度下煮好食物，就这样一直从家里被骂到车上，再骂到学校去。。。在车上的时候，就已经哭得不像人了，走到了教室，同学们都以为我感情出了问题，但却没有人知道我泪腺那么发达的原因何在。也就这样，我很经典的，从第一节课哭到放学，同学们都惊讶。。。

毕业了，进大学了，觉得自己改变最多的，就是脾气。以前还会对皇后顶嘴，后来，无论皇后怎样无理取闹，我都只是静静不说话，不然就是偷偷跑到房间里哭。。。没有人会知道的。。。

直到今天，皇后太过分了，过分得难以言喻，这次我这‘奴婢’一次性爆发，把所有皇后之前无理取闹的事，加上今天的，一边哭一边爆发出来，然后我竟然说了一句很严重的话‘有离家出走的念头不是没有原因的！’。。。

皇后闹到没话闹了，还是始终说都是我这奴婢的错，我喊得喉咙都快裂了，不喊了，就这样从超市哭到回家，然后一整天不出来吃饭，只拿了一碗中药进房里喝。。。

‘孝顺不能等’，我当然了解，我从来都没有不孝顺过，我只知道，女儿也是人，也有人权的，不能因为您是我皇后，我就没有权让您知道您错在哪里。。。我有理的和您说，您却始终要闹翻。。。

Sorry that I'm still loving you :'(

I always remind myself that I have to responsible for whatever decisions I made. Until last night, I realized that I was really regret on one wrong decision that i had made on 9th January~
The only way that i can responsible for the wrong choice i made is to move on, but i still can't be moving on...every night is just like a tear bomb for me, makes me cry spontaneously, feeling sucks until words can't describe it~
I tried, i tried to let go of it, but it still bother me until now, strongly affected my life...I keep blaming myself that why I didn't trust him at the first place, why I didn't give a chance for both of us? After that day, no matter how much efforts i put to fight back for the relationship, it was too late...everything had changed...and only one thing i got which is REGRET... 

If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
If this was a movie, I wish i could re-write the scripts and go back to December...

Goodbye...wish you doing good and still awesome like how you are now in your new life in US =')